Mother's Day Performance Spectacular

Mr. Wonderful is an amazing performer.  He puts together the most spectacular birthday celebrations, gifts and surprises. But his best holiday accomplishments seem to fall on Mother's Day.  What a day for me.  He makes it the best most relaxing day by taking care of our 3 beautiful children and just spoiling me.

I almost can't wait for tomorrow.

Mother's Day Performance of a Lifetime! 

Oh, before you get jealous of my wonderful performing husband… did I mention that he is sleeping on the couch?  Oh crap, now back to my reality I suppose… yes, Mr. Wonderful did a little confessing today that went a long with a tad bit of lying so… my marriage isn't fun or happy or blissful by any means…

but that doesn't mean I can't enjoy Mother's Day and the performance of a lifetime right?

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OF MY WARRIOR SISTERS AND WoPA's.

I LOVE YOU.

"The Two Wolves"

Lately, I feel like there is more than one person occupying space in my body.  
Lately, I feel as though I am constantly battling with myself.
I feel like I need to decide what path I am going to choose on my journey.  What voice I am going to listen to.
And then sometimes I wonder if it's truly my choice at all.  

But then I remember that - yeah, I do have a choice.  
And then I resent the fact that - I DO HAVE A CHOICE.

But then... eventually, I am grateful that - YES, I DO HAVE A CHOICE!  

And I am choosing.

I am choosing to let go.
I am choosing to forgive.
I am choosing to trust.
I am choosing to love.
I am choosing to give people second chances (and then third and forth and fifth chances).
I am choosing to see the best in those around me, even if (and especially if) they don't deserve it.  

I am choosing LIFE and LOVE and FREEDOM and HAPPINESS.  

I am CHOOSING to… 
LET GO   and
FORGIVE   and
TRUST   and
LOVE   and
GIVE CHANCE AFTER CHANCE   and
SEE THE BEST… in Mr. Wonderful… not because he deserves it.

I am CHOOSING to… 
LET GO   and
FORGIVE   and
TRUST   and
LOVE   and
GIVE CHANCE AFTER CHANCE   and
SEE THE BEST… in ME… not because I deserves it.

But because I want...
LIFE   and
LOVE   and
FREEDOM   and
HAPPINESS   

for ME.

I'm scared.  But I'm ready.  And I realize that this will be a choice I get to make every day… or not, but it's mine and I'm grateful.

"The Two Wolves" - A Cherokee Story

A young boy came to his Grandfather, filled with anger at another boy who had done him an injustice.  

The old Grandfather said to his grandson, "Let me tell you a story. I too, at times, have felt a great hate for those that have taken so much, with no sorrow for what they do. 

But hate wears you down, and hate does not hurt your enemy. Hate is like taking poison and wishing your enemy would die. I have struggled with these feelings many times."

"It is as if there are two wolves inside me; one wolf is good and does no harm. He lives in harmony with all around him and does not take offence when no offence was intended. He will only fight when it is right to do so, and in the right way. 

But the other wolf, is full of anger. The littlest thing will set him into a fit of temper."

"He fights everyone, all the time, for no reason. He cannot think because his anger and hate are so great. It is helpless anger, because his anger will change nothing. 

Sometimes it is hard to live with these two wolves inside me, because both of the wolves try to dominate my spirit."

The boy looked intently into his Grandfather's eyes and asked, "Which wolf will win, Grandfather?"

The Grandfather smiled and said, "The one I feed."

"The One I Feed"

Which wolf are you feeding Alice?  It's your choice.  Always.