Meet Knave of Hearts
I don't know what to do about my son, Knave. I am learning to let go and to surrender but there is this line, this fine line because I am still responsible to keep my other two children safe. I feel like there is a good chance that Knave may end up accidentally exposing them to pornography and I feel like it is my duty to keep that from happening. So, where to I let go and where do I protect? What does this look like? Do I keep the internet shut down when I am away from home to keep this from happening or is that controlling? I feel like I am gaging uncharted territory as a mother going through this addiction with her son... it is VERY different than going through it with my husband. I am less angry and more concerned. I am more about mercy and less about justice. It is definitely different. Still, I feel some responsibility for my son’s addiction and I felt responsibility for my husband’s addiction.
I think your responsibility as a parent (as you clearly recognise) is very different than your responsibility as a spouse, and what could be controlling as a spouse is not as a parent (even if the child might see it that way). If you're able to have a conversation with your son about your concerns and need to protect your other children, that would be great.
ReplyDeleteMy heart aches for you. I hope you're able to make prayerful decisions and find peace.
Thanks for your support and empathy and helpful words. I feel like I'm going through this for the first time again.
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