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It annoys me.
It annoys me to be out in public with Mr. Wonderful and all the sex symbols that surround society. The advertisements convincing me (and him) that if I look like this or that, if I wear this or that, if I eat (or don't eat) this or that, if I drink this or that... then and ONLY THEN will I be happy, will HE be happy.
When I am out in the world by myself I notice that, at times, I have to do self talk and use my tools to stay grounded and to fight off all the lies that surround me.
When I am out in the world with Mr. Wonderful I notice that, ALL of the time, I have to do self talk and I use up all my energy using every tool I've ever learned to stay grounded and to fight off all the lies that surround me.
Why is it like this? Is it like this for any of you who have dealt with infidelity, porn addiction, sex addition, etc?
IT SUCKS!
And I want it to STOP!
I would actually like to enjoy Mr. Wonderful and our time out on dates. I would actually like date night to be the respite that it is suppose to be, not the exhausting work that it is now.
Stupid addiction. Stupid betrayal. Stupid lies. Stupid overly sexualized world.
IT SUCKS!
It really does suck. It's disgusting, it's hurtful, it's pervasive, it ruins lives, and it just plain sucks!! Only internal strength can combat the filth we're assaulted with on a daily basis living in this world. It's so much work for husband *and* wife and it sucks! I'm constantly thinking of the verse someone else shared on their blog, John 16:33 "In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."
ReplyDeleteThere is a man who was not affected by the oversexualized world. That man is Christ. And he loves YOU for all the right reasons. And through Him you can feel value in yourself as YOURSELF and not the body you're in. God means for you to be loved the way He loves you. There is nothing in his heart besides sadness for his daughter who is suffering with a husband who has been unfaithful and enslaved to pornography.
I hope you know you deserve to not feel the feelings you're feeling. You are so much more than a body! I'll be praying for you, you are so valuable!